A Meaningful Mother’s Day Gift
A Letter from My Son
Mother’s Day 2016
Man, it’s been a long ride. Seventeen years of ups and downs in our relationship and we both had our separate struggles. However, something that has been consistent throughout these years is you have showed up for me. You’ve been there when I was a young kid in preschool and I decided to grow out my bangs; then I really got sick and tired of not being able to see, so I chopped them off. And you were there: I remember you telling me, “It’s your life, it’s your hair.” You were there for me in third grade when I was getting bullied, to pull me out of that situation and take matters into your own hands. You attempted to teach me even though you have no experience as an elementary school teacher, and you supported me in finding the best program for me to finish elementary school. On the other hand, you were there for me when I was at my worst, attempting suicide, but even though there must have been so many emotions rushing through you, you were there to support me and take the best action to save my life. When I was at my worst depressed states in my life, there you were expending everything in your power to support me and expecting nothing in return. And you were also there when I was being pulled away by the hospital security to the isolation room. For you being able to show up for me every day and when I couldn’t do it for myself I am forever so grateful. There are really no words to describe how grateful I am for the love and support you have shown me.
I have so many great memories with you and I would love to just share a few with you. The times when you, my sister, and I would lie upside down, cover our eyes, and put glasses on our chins then say super weird things were some of the hardest laughs I’ve had. I remember how you were always the funniest and just breaking down laughing so hard together. I remember all the belly-blowing farts and how hard you would laugh. Your laugh is on of the best memories I keep with me at all times, especially when you would laugh so hard that this honking, snorting sound came out, which made my sister laugh even harder. Those were some of the best times. I remember all the conversations I had with you in your room at night talking about deep concepts, the meaning of life, what makes us who we are, and just the entire universe, in general. I remember the first conversation I had with you when I got out of the woods, how happy I was to hear your voice and I could just feel your happiness for the conversation flowing through the phone. You’ve showed me what it looks like to be a good mom or a good parent for that matter, a person who works a spiritual life, and as a result amazing things come to her. Some of the biggest gifts you have given to me that I am most grateful for is you have set the tone for me of what it means to be a good person. Even though we are apart, physical distance cannot separate the love and gratitude I feel toward you for just being the best mom you could ever be for me. I’m very, very lucky. So here’s to you—happy mother’s day, Mom. From the deep feeling in my gut and from the bottom of my heart I love you. Thanks for being my mom.
Matthew forever and forever