“No, you can’t always get what you want
You can’t always get what you want
You can’t always get what you want
But if you try sometime you find
You get what you need”-Keith Richards and Mick Jagger
My neighbors and I now have high speed internet here on the side of the mountain!! What a feng shui energy shift. It’s like we’ve been living with a chillin’ out teenager taking a nap with art swirl posters on the wall of her bedroom. She would often wake up for a moment and then hit the snooze button.
Today we are with a fully caffeinated, fast-talking, incredibly cheerful 25- year- old, who wants to dance, chat, laugh, work, play, and get a whole lot of tasks complete. We’re celebrating the tech languages of love firing on all cylinders. Wahoooo! I don’t think I really knew what “powered up” meant until this moment.
We shifted from 18 speed to 450 speed. Wow.
The poltergeist in my laptop got exorcised. After hours of technical intervention, we discovered an email that had too many photo attachments. The diligent Oompaloompas inside my computer kept trying to send that package as though it was Fed Ex or Amazon or UPS. Tech experts found the gremlin carrying this overloaded backpack and expunged him. For three hours an amazingly gifted tech woman from Microsoft worked with my computer. She upgraded the services to match the capacities of 2019. She had the patience of a monk. Can I say how appreciative I am of tech brained folks who love to solve these kinds of issues? We all have our strengths, gifts, skills, and proclivities. Please know that tech skills continue to be in that fourth concentric learning circle of stretch, growth, and “I really don’t wanna. You can’t make me!” I will continue to seek support in this ever-changing labyrinth world of technology.
Here’s what I learned about myself during this first world challenge of the last 10 months:
I love the Dripolator coffee shop in Black Mountain. The staff loves me too. I’m a happy card-carrying member of the frequent buyer program with lots of hole punches in that card. There’s WIFI waves of goodness there.
I can adapt and am persistent. I also didn’t ever lose my s*(& over tech issues. Not once. Meditation really kept me grounded and able to adapt to whatever showed up with tech stuff. Plus, every single day that I’m not driving in heavy traffic or standing in front of a judge in a court room or rushing into an emergency room with a loved one, remains a huge blessing. I know my low bar of petrifying, trauma-triggering experiences. I know I can navigate really hard life challenges. This was not any of those.
My laptop continues to be a more meaningful and joyful belonging than some ring on my finger that I would have sold in August of 2014 for a fraction of the cost of this wonderful gift. For those of you who hadn’t heard, I received this laptop from my then husband on Christmas morning of 2013, our last Christmas together. I had asked for a birthday/anniversary ring.
I learned about the drop box for photos. I found another pathway for those photos.
Slow internet was not an excuse for me. I still sent out the once/week newsletter, did posts on my website, LI, FB, created and uploaded videos, and posted photos. I did let people know what was happening as I did go off-line for chunks of time due to power outages, interrupted service, and the gremlin issue.
You don’t always get what you want, but sometimes you get what you need. You might actually receive a belonging that supports your future life and livelihood. You may not realize this fully in the moment of your disappointment over the other thing. You will eventually get over your sadness and be delighted by what you actually received. Lean in.
Trust that the Universe/God/Grace/Divine Deliciousness/Goddess Gilda always has your back. Always.
Keep going even when life throws you curve balls or slow internet or no power. Your dreams are completely worth the effort. Your gratitude will explode when the issue finally resolves.
Be grateful for the challenges and for the grace of resolution, which may take time to show itself. The resolution may not be what you thought it would be.
Your life can shine bright no matter if it’s a cloudy day, a rainy day, a blizzardy day, or your socks get eaten by the dryer, again.
You are loved more than you can even imagine. You matter. You came here with gifts, talents, skills, life experiences that others can celebrate and be inspired by. There’s no one else like you and there won’t ever be.
You are the sole and uncontested author of your life story. You can create one that makes your heart sing even if your heart breaks wide open or the gremlins take over your laptop. You are amazingly alive, beautiful, and free to be uniquely you.